It's Friday again, and I have to think about what I'm doing. Not just today, not just tonight, but overall. I'd like to feel a little more in control of my own direction. I don't like to say that I'm drifting, but looking back at this online trail of crumbs, yes, I am. Not really pointed in any particular direction. It might be time to figure a way out of that.
One nice thing to nudge me happened this afternoon, actually about an hour ago. Maureen, the woman from UC who is trying to organize a quintet, called and asked if I wanted to go along with the other members of the quintet-to-be and hear the Chamber Music Society of Lincoln Center over at Mandel at UC. They're playing some works you don't hear often... the Beethoven Septet in E flat and I think the Schubert Octet. Apparently they all ended up with a couple of extra student-rate tickets (nine dollars rather than $22) and Maureen wanted to know if I wanted to go with them. Seeing something to shake me out of the doldrums (and maybe help tune my small-ensemble ears up again) I said yes. They're coming up here to pick me up, and they afterward we may all go somewhere for dessert.
I used to do more of this sort of thing in college and even in grad school. Since my parents died I think I haven't felt like being around people as much as I used to. No one who knows me now knew me well from "before," though, so I have no good independent judge of the change.
Time to stop worrying about it and start thinking about being me, now, as I am, now.
I may post some more here later, unless we get back very late.